Today I have been reading about Feminism, equality, and accomplishment.

This great thing I want to do with my life.

What I have wanted to do in my life has changed according to where I was in my life.  In college I wanted to be successful.  I wanted to be known as knowledgeable in my field, to be good at what I do, and sought after for that reason.  In the back of my head I wanted to be a mom too.

In graduate school I started out the same way.  Though, I had to prove myself more.  Until the day I realized that most of the time I spent studying in the library was researching pregnancy and birth.

Then I became a Mom.  These little beings have consumed my life.  It makes me wish I had studied MFHD and Tailoring, and worked as a housekeeper.  It is hard to feel accomplished when the task repeats day after day and STILL there is more to do.  When those little eyes look up at you though and the little arms get wrapped around your neck, you realize that this is a great thing I am doing with my life.  I am honored and blessed that I can stay home with my babies. My husband and I are working on working together.  I have never felt like what I want is out of reach because I am female.  I am a mother, I am strong, and I do great things.

I realize that this is not the only great thing I want to do with my life. I want to comfort and console.  I want to connect with others, and teach them how to live better lives.  I want to garden.  Oh, how I want to garden.  I want to help others feed themselves. I want to teach people to be themselves, feed themselves, heal themselves and learn to sustain themselves, and others.  Heal hearts who have been hurt by injustice, or inequality.  Ultimately I want to be involved in Community Gardens, Farmers Markets and local gardening.


Mawn said...

This is why you're one of my role models!

Suzanna H. said...

Aw. THANK YOU. I am honored.